You’ve lost someone to death. A person that you knew, loved
and talked to is no longer there. The grief is crippling, food turns to ash in
your mouth, you are unable to move, function, smile. Will you ever laugh again?
I have been there for hundreds of families and talked them
through the emotions they are feeling just trying to find a way to convey to
them that it is normal to be angry, sad, numb, even happy. I myself have
experienced that total grief that comes with a devastating loss.
Grief is real for everybody, it is normal, it is tangible. You
can feel it, taste it and hate it. So how do you embrace it? A question I get quite
frequently from families is, “When will this pain end?” The only true answer to
that question is that it won’t. But, you will learn to survive with it. The
more you embrace the ache and hurt the more you learn to live despite it.
It is currently Springtime and I awoke this morning realizing that this time of year is the perfect analogy to living with grief. Where I live, during the winter months, we get lots of snow. This creates many challenges. It can be a challenge to get up in the morning and have to scrape the ice off your car in the freezing cold. It can be a challenge to then drive on slush laden roads where the simple turn of a wheel or fast brake, whether by you or someone else, can send your car into a seemingly uncontrollable skid. Grief is like that. There are times when just getting out of bed is a task too difficult to achieve and driving on slushy roads is similar to the unpredictability of interacting with the world, you almost never know what might trigger an attack of horrible grief rendering you almost incapable of functioning. In those moments, remember that spring is coming. Even when you feel so heavy that simply putting one foot in front of the other does not seem possible, you will again feel the sunshine after a long winter. It’s like when the snow has melted and flowers with their bursts of color are just starting to peek through the dead grass and weeds. You will start to have days where you feel whole and complete and find joy in being. Of course, reality will come back just like the snow and the rain during springtime but again the sun will shine and more and more color will start to burst forth and your heart will lighten.
Just like in nature there is a natural ebb and flow to grief.
The clouds will part briefly allowing for a few deep breaths and then the gloom
settles in again. When this happens remember that the sun will find its way
through the clouds and give you moments of respite. The long winters and springtime
seasons will always present themselves, you cannot escape it. However, even in
the darkest hours, in the worst moments of trying to get through a day, an hour
or a minute, your best defense of cloudy, snowy days is try to remember the Spring.
I have such a
great life. An amazing and supportive husband. A beautiful and gentle autistic step-son.
An old dog who has been by my side for so many years. I am fortunate in that
every struggle, me and my family faces, I know that we will survive and thrive
on a real and epic level.
It is the
weekend and I am supposed to be working right now. I am sitting at my desk with
piles of paper all around. I should be filing the stacks and entering data into
the software. My to do list includes arranging mailing lists, creating advertising
material, organizing phone calls for the next week and preparing to interview
potential employees. Yet… instead I sit. Still and quiet, loving the sounds
around me. My husband and my niece, who are in the adjacent room, are talking through
the best strategies to handle the myriad of situations they are facing in a
video game. My step-son is in the room next to me traversing through his own
maze of imaginative worlds while muttering recollected phrases out loud. Vash
(the old dog) is lying on the floor sleeping soundly, and at the moment,
seemingly free from the ache of inflamed joints and the trembling internal pain
that afflict the aging.
is running, the laundry is in various states of being washed, dried or folded. Between
household chores and running a business, nothing is ever finished, there is
always something to be done. Yet right now, this moment is more important than
anything else I could be doing.
Life events cannot be anticipated and can turn our simple everyday routines upside down. You never know when an accident may occur resulting in a major disruption to a peaceful weekend, month, year. I have lived long enough to know that it takes only a minute for life to turn into chaos and tragedy. So instead of working right now, I am soaking up the little moments of my perfect life that I vow, will never be taken for granted.
The season was changing, it was fall. Orange
and yellow leaves scattered the ground. Some leaves still clung to the trees in
pure defiance of being replaced by newer, greener leaves in the spring. The air
was crisp, the grass was turning brown and crunchy. It was the perfect season
for a graveside service. The woman who passed away had pre-arranged all of her
services prior to her death. She was to be embalmed and have a night of viewing
at the mortuary then the next day be transported to a cemetery in a neighboring
town for a graveside and burial.
During the arrangement meeting with the
children we finalized all of the details, set the time for viewing and when we
would meet at the cemetery. The children left and I busied myself with ordering
the casket and vault and notified the cemetery of our plans so they could dig
the grave. I then called the clergy to coordinate when to meet at the cemetery,
he let me know that he was not able to make the trip but would be at the
viewing to say a few words to the family. This is not unusual with services
that are out of town, the clergy sometimes have other obligations and are not
able to travel for a service. Often in these cases the funeral director will
step in and say a few words in lieu of the clergy. I notified the children and
offered to step in which they readily agreed and were grateful for the offer.
At no time during any of our interactions did the children indicate what was to
happen the day of the graveside.
The viewing went as planned. Family and
friends came and visited. Nothing was out of the ordinary. Once the viewing
ended I allowed the children some private time with their mother before I
closed the casket for the last time. They said their goodbyes and left the
The next day, I arrived at the funeral
home early. I placed the casket in the hearse along with a register book,
tissues and lap quilts. Then I got on the road for the long trip. It was about
a three-hour drive through winding country roads lined with trees, the bright fall
colors were a welcome backdrop. I arrived at the cemetery early in order to get
everything ready and then waited for the children to arrive. During these times
I enjoy scoping out surrounding headstones looking for unique sayings or try
and find the oldest headstone in the area. As I wandered around I noticed it
was getting close to the time for the graveside and had not yet seen or heard
from the children. Still I waited, I knew it was a long drive and they would
have had to get up pretty early to make it there in time and they had been up
late the night before for the viewing, so I waited.
It was ten minutes past time for the
graveside and still no sign of the children. I called the son to ask about their
ETA. He didn’t answer so I left a message. I then called the daughter, she didn’t
answer so I also left her a message. Then sat in a chair under the tent and continued
to wait. At twenty minutes past time for the graveside I was still the only
person there, aside from the cemetery crew waiting nearby. Finally, the son
called me back. He told me that no one in the family would be there, no one had
enough money for gas for that long of a trip and they all had to work today. I
was shocked! Not once did any of the children give me an indication that they
would not be there. After a moment of silence, I was thinking of how to respond
to that, I finally asked the son how he would like me to proceed. He told me to
just say a few words and then have his mother buried. They would make a trip to
the cemetery at a later date. We both hung up.
I stood there in the cemetery looking towards
the cemetery crew awaiting my signal. I looked at the tent and the chairs
perfectly aligned with folded blankets set on each one for the family to sit in
comfort. It was quiet there, aside from a few rustling leaves as light wisps of
wind carried them around the headstones. I turned my head and looked back at
the hearse with the waiting casket and its passenger awaiting pall bearers to carry
it to the grave opening.
It was the perfect kind of day and the
perfect set up for a graveside service. I swallowed hard in disappointment and walked
to the waiting cemetery crew. I explained the situation, stressing that there
would be no one to help carry the casket to the grave. The crew jumped into
action and called in additional coworkers, then they stepped out of their truck
and followed me over to the hearse. The additional men showed up and we all
carried the woman to her final resting place. Then, to my surprise all the crew
stood in a line near the casket in a ready and waiting position and one of them
gave me a little nod. I understood that they would be the fill in mourners for
the little service I had planned. I said my few words and read a poem I had
found, then took a picture of the crew standing there behind the casket. I was
so touched by the cemetery crews’ actions, they were so willing to step in and stand
as mourners, it was truly heartwarming. I thanked them all and let them finish
Once I got back to the funeral home, I
printed the pictures along with the speech and poem I had read and put it all
in the mail for the children. If they couldn’t be there in person, at least
they would know that their mother was memorialized properly.
In hindsight, maybe I could have been clearer
with the children about the expectation that they would meet me at the
cemetery, prompting the discussion about their lack of gas money. I would have
happily provided a hearse at no charge to assure they could attend the
graveside. While they were happy with the pictures and copy of the speech, I
still feel the situation could have been avoided had we communicated better. And,
although it worked out, I wonder how many times this has happened that the
cemetery crew were so prepared to step in and attend the service of woman they
I recognize that ultimately this is kind of a sad story, the connection between these two hearts is real and so I decided to share anyway.
I knocked firmly on the wooden door. It was an ordinary wooden door to an ordinary house in an ordinary neighborhood. As I patiently waited I checked to make sure I had buttoned my black suit jacket and that my pressed black pants were clean and free of lint. I cradled a clipboard in my arm and looked over the information written on it one more time so that I could address the family by name. As the door opened a middle age man stood in my view. He was wearing jeans and a t-shirt and looked tired, it was almost midnight. The blackness outside was stark against the light spilling from the now open doorway. I introduced myself as the funeral director with the mortuary and asked about the person whose name I had been given and written on my clipboard.
I was invited into the home and the door was closed behind
me. I entered a cozy living room where two women sat a couch together, the
couch was cream with mint green stripes. The man who invited me in walked passed
me and sat on a recliner with the same pattern as the couch. I made my
introductions again and inquired after their names and relation to the woman
that I would be leaving with. They were all her children. As we talked I took a
seat on a wooden chair near the group and looked around the room. Family
pictures were carefully placed on a mantle. A side table held a tall white lamp
and stack of papers. Then I got down to the reason I was there. To take their
mothers body back to the mortuary with me.
They talked about her a little and told me how she had held
everyone in the family together and her passing was going to be an adjustment. She
had been ill for some time with cancer and even though her death was expected
it was hitting them hard. I inquired about their father and was told that he
was not handling her death well, that he was in his room sleeping. After
gathering some details I had the family take me to where their mother was
located. We walked down a small hallway and entered a room to our left. The
room was dimly lit. There was the smell of illness, if you haven’t ever
experienced this before it is like a mixture of bleached linens and medication.
There were two beds in the room parallel to each other. One was a twin bed
pressed against the far wall and the other a hospital bed located just near the
doorway where we were standing. There was a nightstand next to the hospital bed
covered in pill bottles, tissues and a partially empty water bottle. I took everything
in and realized that both beds were occupied by still and silent forms. I
walked up to the hospital bed where the woman lay and assessed her position and
how best to move her without disturbing the other occupant of the room. The
twin bed held a man curled up in the blankets facing the far wall with his back
to us, not moving. I gathered that this was her husband and he was doing his
best to ignore what was going on in the hospital bed next to him.
The children and I took our leave and I waited until we
were back in the living room to address the situation. I asked, “Is that your
father?” and “Does he want to leave the room before I bring the cot into the
house?” They assured me that he would want to stay where he was and to proceed
as normal. I walked out of the house to get my coworker waiting by the van and unload
the cot. As we walked back to the house I explained to him what we were walking
into and how we would proceed. Everything went as planned. We successfully
transferred the woman into our care and left as the children stood in the open
doorway of the house watching us drive away.
About a week later I received another first call (when we
are first notified of a death), it was the same address and the same family
name. Of course my thoughts went to the curled up man in the bed on the far
side of that dimly lit room. I entered through the same wooden doorway, spoke
to the same children and walked down the same small hallway into the same room.
The form in the twin bed was just as still as he had been a week ago. The
hospital bed had been removed but everything else in that room was the same. As
the children and I left the room and walked down the hallway towards the living
room for a second time I asked, “Had he also been ill?” the answer was no, he
just stopped moving after their mother died. He wouldn’t eat or drink, he just
This scenario happens more often than most people would think. A person can die of literal heartbreak. I read an article once that explained when people are that connected, the survivor is so distraught that their heart reacts just like they were having a heart attack. It is actually called “Broken heart syndrome”. I for one find this terribly romantic, that a love between two people is so deep that when one dies the other simply cannot live without them. It seems like more and more people give up on love once it gets difficult, but these stories give me hope that there is still lots of love out there and couples are making it work through the good times and the bad. I hope this for all of you this Valentine’s day. Struggle through the hard times and make it last until death do you part.
“I love you without knowing how, or when, or from where. I love you simply, without problems or pride: I love you in this way because I do not know any other way of loving but this, in which there is no I or you, so intimate that your hand upon my chest is my hand, so intimate that when I fall asleep your eyes close.” ― Pablo Neruda, 100 Love Sonnets
The pillows have been fluffed, fresh water is ready in a drinking
glass nearby. There are rows of bottles neatly arranged on the bedside table
and someone you love is tucked under the sheets, sleeping soundly, finally. How
long will they be asleep this time? An hour? Eight? There is no telling when the
illness is terminal, and you are the caretaker. Has it been days? weeks? Years?
Doctors visits, therapy, medications, little sleep and sponge baths. It is an
honor to care for the people we love and help them when they cannot help
themselves, it is also a full-time job and exhausting. So, what happens when
this part of the job is over? Your person has died, and the hospital takes away
the bed that you have placed fresh sheets on a thousand times, cleaned up
messes with soap and bleach and lovingly snuggled with someone you love who was
sick and dying. The bottles of pills are no longer needed, some full, some half
empty. That drinking glass with the flower print sits on the night stand
silently reminding you that this person loved purple irises. So many things you
are now going to go through, the next set of tasks are listed somewhere in your
brain. Your journey through grief starts here.
Many experts have published the stages of grief that we are
supposed to go through. Like there is a pre-prescribed way to come to terms with
why your mother is no longer there for your planned Sunday brunch date, or why your
brother was found hanging in the closet when he seemed so happy, or why your
unborn child never made it through the birth canal alive. There is no formula
for getting through these events. There is no end to how people leave the world
as we know it. And there are thousands of ways that we as humans handle these
losses. It is time to put away our assumptions of how people grieve and let go of
the way a funeral is done just because that is how it has been done. People don’t
live and die in the same manner, lets celebrate who they were on our own terms,
with our own kind of celebration.
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Gillian Rodriguez is a licensed funeral director and embalmer in the state of
Texas. She has been fully licensed since 2013 and has been in the funeral
industry since 2011. She is now the aftercare director for Parting Pro, a
rapidly growing software company for funeral professionals.
How did you get into the
Funny story. I set off after high school and
earned my bachelor’s degree in Psychology in 2007- about the same time the
recession was really gearing up. Realizing one million (plus or minus) students
were graduating with my same degree every year, I decided I need to
differentiate myself. I’d previously completed internships in forensics, where
I loved the science but missed the connection with people. I’d also completed
an internship in grief counseling, where I loved working with people but missed
the hard sciences. I took time off to soul-search and really determine what I
wanted to do, and then it hit me. Funeral Directing. The challenge of it
appealed to me in a way I still can’t explain- I wanted to step into the lives
of people who needed it the most, and be their helper. Fearing my parents’
total disapproval (they were envisioning law school or another post-grad
program, I think), I sheepishly mentioned my interest. My mom grinned ear
to ear, and said it made perfect since, given my heritage. How could I have
escaped this connection? Of course, she was right. I would be the fourth-generation
funeral director/embalmer in my family, and the first woman in the succession.
So, was it family? Was it passion? Without hesitation, both.
This industry is hard. Why
do you do your job every day?
I have an inexplicable desire to approach the
hardest, worst situations in the world and act. The challenge of not only
directing, but really helping the families who needed it most, traversing this
universe of shock, grief, terror, anger, sadness, relief, happiness and joy in
their memories…and everything in-between? Yes, please. The families that are
the “hard” families, with the most complicated situations and loss?
Those are my people. The ability to reach the un-reachable is something that
drives me every day, even now.
What is your favorite part
of the job?
My job has taken me into a new challenge of
our profession- communicating with colleagues across the country about death
care technology. As the Aftercare Director for Parting Pro-the most innovative
software in the funeral profession- my job is tasked with bridging the gap
between the nostalgia and familiarity of yester-year (typewriters? carbon paper
contracts?) and the technology of the future (digital ID verification, online
arrangement experiences and digital case management). It’s no longer
sufficient to have a website that tells families to call your business. Your
website must now offer an interactive, online experience. Families can buy a
diamond ring, a car, a house and more online- why is our profession lagging in
meeting families where they need us, in their new-found online communities? You
can still be the neighborhood funeral home, while recognizing that a virtual
“neighborhood” exists, too. So my favorite part? Intellectualizing
how to take our profession into the future, with compassion, values, and
service at the forefront.
How do you balance work and
home life? What do you do for self-care?
Wait, there’s a balance? Just kidding! First,
I want to acknowledge that I didn’t pop out of mortuary school knowing about
this balance, the need for it, or how to achieve it. That was a rather painful
learning experience that took years to master. I realized I was working myself
to death for a lifestyle I could never participate in, because I was working
myself to death. Which brings me to my self-care: Saying “no.”
Sounds simple, but it’s not. Learning how to say no was, and still is how I practice
self-care. Does this mean I don’t work hard? No. It means I’m selective in the
work that I do, and relish the peace found in the quiet moments that are mine
to own. I think, as women in this profession, we often believe that we have to
work harder, smarter, better, stronger, and “more” in order to prove
our place. But it wasn’t until I realized that mentality was total bullshit and
self-destructive, that I was able to pour myself into my total life
Outside of work, what are
I’m consumed by learning. My hobbies/interests
at the moment are graduate school, where I’m earning a Master’s degree in
clinical mental health counseling. Immersing myself in intellectual stimulation
may sound like torture to some, but for me, it’s my time. It’s my mental space
to re-claim and grow my own understanding of people, their lived-in
experiences, their meanings. My focus is on applications of emotional contagion
and indirect trauma, as well as combining artificial intelligence with bereavement
counseling services online to one day, broaden accessibility to these resources
If you choose, tell us
about your family, kids, spouses, pets etc.
My family, without a doubt, is the only reason
I can do this. Any of this. When I was considering graduate school, my husband
simply looked at me and said, “I want you to have your dream.” My
son, who’s three, well…while I think the hours away from each other are hard
on us both, the hours spent together are that much more savored and treasured.
He’s my absolute sunshine (and knows it). My dogs are my other children, and
there have been many, many times I’ve cried into their soft fur at night in
total grief for the family I served. My
village deserves every ounce of credit for my professional, personal and
Tell a story about a family
you have served.
While working at an internship, I remember
serving a family of a fallen serviceman who was killed overseas. I’d never been
exposed to this level of service, had no idea what “high profile”
meant or anything to do with the ceremony and honor of that type of service. I
was completely naive, not prepared, and shadowed the entire process in my own
shock and awe. The day of the arrangements, my brother told my family he would
be deployed, and all I could envision was this family at the funeral home.
About the time I broke down, and decided that I couldn’t be a funeral
professional, I realized that if something like that were to happen to my
brother, I would want someone to take care of me, in the way I desired to care
for that family. It was more than a desire. It was a compelling need. A
determination to perfect it. My brother was deployed to South Korea and we were
blessed with his safe return. Naturally, the military perfected 99% of the
service, but the small time I had with his widow inspired me to contact The
American Widow Project, and promote their materials throughout as many funeral
homes as time would allow.
What message would you like
to give to the public about our profession?
I am human. I am not Lurch Adams. I am not a
morbidly-consumed evil-wisher, waiting to prey upon a family when tragedy
strikes and my pockets are empty. Nay, I’m a rather normal person. If you see
me in the grocery store, I’ll probably have my son, shopping for the same food
you eat. If you call me at 3 a.m., I’ll probably sound foggy for the first
three seconds because…I actually sleep. When you feel pain, I feel pain. I’ve
just learned little tricks to sustain myself long enough to get to my car and
cry the entire way home. I know how to care for you when your over-sized
sunglasses aren’t quite big enough to conceal your dissolution into grief.
Simply, I’m a person too, and I want to help.
This is the last in the Who We Are Speaking of Series for December 2018. Please submit details and contact information for your favorite funeral director to be placed in the spotlight for future series to firstname.lastname@example.org. Thanks!
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In this post of “Who We Are Speaking Of” series I talked to Monica Torres who has been in the funeral industry since 2008. She is the founder/owner of NXT Generation Mortuary Support, LLC is a CFSP and is licensed as an AZ Funeral Director, Embalmer, Desairologist and Reconstructive Specialist. Her passion for enhancing body preparation techniques has taken the industry by storm with no signs of stopping.
Being a young female and Latina, her entrepreneurship in the
funeral industry has certainly caught all of our attention. With a background
in cosmetology she has always known she wanted to be a business owner. With the
support and encouragement of her mother she successfully completed the courses
for a mortuary science degree and didn’t stop there.
During her studies she realized that there were limitations to prep work in the embalming room, inciting her to take the instructor course in Hollywood with Dinair. She then developed an airbrush makeup course that was applicable in the prep room (funeral industry lingo for the back rooms where bodies are embalmed and prepared).
Passion and compassion has been the framework for the empire
she is creating in the funeral industry, beginning with the death of her father
when was she was just 9 months old.
After a terrible mining accident her father sustained massive
crushing head wounds and severe trauma that included his entire body, a
scenario that in most cases would make the body unviewable. However, the
embalmer in her town was able to restore her father well enough for the family,
and the town, to see him again allowing them to have a final goodbye. Over the
years, she heard over and over stories from her family about how healing it was
to be able to see her dad one last time and this sparked a flame in the little
girl who lost her father to become the trailblazer in the funeral industry that
she has become today. Monica has dedicated her career to the value of open
casket viewing, after experiencing its value first hand. She has taken advanced
courses in embalming and mixed with her cosmetology background she now teaches other
embalmers these techniques on how to reconstruct, restore and repair severe trauma,
giving grieving families a lasting and acceptable memory of their loved one.
She has been featured in Funeral Business Advisor, Noomis, The Independent, the ACCFA, Funeral
Nation and most notably American Funeral Director along with many others. You
can find these articles and more at https://www.nxtgenmortuarysupport.com/. You can also follow her on twitter at #EmbalmingTipOfTheWeek @ColdHandsHosts
been so many families that have impacted my career, but the families I have served
that have suffered the loss of an infant or unborn have sculpted my career the
most. These families are often underrepresented and underserved. Baby Angel came into my care 2.5 years ago.
Baby Angel was stillborn at full term. His mother gave birth to him in the back
bedroom of her parents house during her fathers 56th birthday party.
Over 30 family members witnessed the lifeless birth of Baby Angel. In their
grief the family did what their Mexican culture called for. Home births are
still not uncommon in Mexico and Baby Angel was bathed and dressed and passed
around to family members who all wanted the opportunity to say hello and
goodbye to this eagerly anticipated gift. After 2 days of bathing, changing
outfits for family photo opps and after all family and friends had gotten the
opportunity to see him the family finally brought him to my funeral home. I
received baby Angel in an advanced decomposed state. During the arrangements I
offered his parents one last opportunity to see him. I offered them the gift of
embalming and the compassionate care of my skilled hands. My advanced training allowed
me to restore baby Angel to a dignified and viewable state. So overjoyed with the presentation of the embalming
were they that Baby Angels parents asked to please give them more time with him
and requested a home viewing and proper funeral for all their family and
neighbors. Without hesitation they asked
to take him home in the plush baby blue casket they picked out for him. After this experience I realized the impact I
had on this family and realized that infant embalming was not a subject ever
taught in any embalming course I had attended. In loving memory of Baby Angel
and the value his viewing brought to his family I was inspired to create my new
“Embalming the Infant Death; Progressive Embalming techniques for infants and the unborn”
permission of the families I have documented over 20 cases of infant death
embalmings and look forward to sharing my new course and with other
professional embalmers in 2019. The course not only focuses on technical
embalming treatments but also touches on modern trends in the birthing industry
and the relevancy of infant services in modern day funeral home operations. Other
areas of focus are the need for infant and unborn services and how to list
these services on the GPL in a way that is sensitive to the needs of families who
have suffered the loss of an infant.
I would like
for people to know that I am actively working on what the future of embalming
is going to look like. The time for change is here and I’m very excited to be
part of that change. I believe in the healing power of open casket viewing and
the art and science of embalming and alternative methods of viewing of the
deceased. My company NXT Generation Mortuary Support was founded on the
concrete mission to support funeral homes and professionals while offering
useful and relevant information to consumers. I hope to be able to grow my
business by partnering with other like-minded companies that also offer
services and products that support our beloved industry and the families that
To reach Monica about how her courses please visit her websites contact page by clinking the link here.
“Speaking of the Dead is a well written, entertaining easy read. The subject matter is not what you find in any other book (that I have read). Chelsea writes so that we can understand her experiences and makes you laugh and cry. Great read!!”
“Very good read. This puts a different, more human touch to the profession. We all need to understand the process since we cannot run from death but for so long. Chelsea did great with this book and I look forward to more by this author.”
This series is meant to highlight beautiful funeral directors. Too many times we see and hear the media focus on the horrible things that happen in the funeral industry. I am here to prove that there is more good in our industry than bad. Every story in this series is written by the directors themselves.
Dennis K. Wesley
Dennis is the business owner of Funeral Directors First Call. He has been in the funeral industry for 26 years serving many independent and corporate firms with support services. He began his career in a small-town funeral home doing 150 calls a year. He owned a seasonal business and always had an interest in the funeral industry. He has been married for 31 years to Bobbie and has a 25-year-old daughter Tori. He is really into older cars, photography and enjoying great bands.
I think that the service we provide is like what a priest does for his congregation. We are called upon to do a scared task of helping the loved ones get through a horrible time. I have a desire to help people and there is no better way than funeral service. Helping families get through the worst few days possibly of their lives.
I think all funeral professionals probably work way too many hours. I honestly have a problem with knowing when to stop and go home. I am very involved in my church and volunteer in many charities around Baltimore. That helps me relax and get up for the next call.
Years ago I was working for the medical examiner’s office and received a suicide call on Christmas morning 2006. I arrived to find a 9-year-old little girl who had hung herself. She had been abused by her stepdad and had begged her mother to make him stop. I can still remember getting her down and I was determined not to put her in a body bag. I had the mother come down and I let her say goodbye. I then proceeded to carry her lifeless body up the stairs and I turned my head and the stepfather was holding her little sister consoling her. That was a moment in my career that I saw the good and the bad of our industry. People don’t realize what we have to deal with on a daily basis. My Christmas will never be the same.
The funeral profession is not full of rich men and women who drive fancy Cadillac and Lincoln automobiles. We are everyday people who devote their life to serving the dead and their families. We are secretaries, lawn mowers, priest, counselors, police officers, painters, make-up artist, surgeons and everything else. We do all types of jobs in our duties as funeral professionals.
If you know of a funeral director who would fit in this series please send me an email (email@example.com) with who the person is and contact information. This series is planned to run each week in December but I may run another series again in the future.
This series is meant to highlight beautiful funeral directors. Too many times we see and hear the media focus on the horrible things that happen in the funeral industry. I am here to prove that there is more good in our industry than bad. Every story in this series is written by the directors themselves.
Bonnie Dalberg Ansley
Bonnie began working in the funeral industry in 2006. Her titles have included funeral director assistant, office manager, embalmer, funeral director, décor specialist and manager. Currently she holds a funeral director and embalmer license in Georgia.
How did you get into the industry?
At the age of 22, I lived in Augusta, Georgia working multiple jobs while majoring in biochemistry. My father had suffered from chest pains while mowing the yard. After resting inside a bit, he was taken to the local VA hospital and was told he was in the middle of a heart attack and needed an emergency triple bypass. The surgery went well, but infection soon set in – his entire body had lost all it’s natural color, the open incision on his chest had turned green and purple and I naturally thought he was going to die. I’ve encountered death before with classmates, a SIDS baby from my mother’s daycare and even extended family, but up to this point, never that close to heart. I was devastated and thought “What do I do? Who do I turn to? What will happen when he dies?” Thankfully, he recovered, but the impact of the trauma was so deep. When he was strong enough, I made the decision that I wanted to be the one to take care of my dad. I want to be the one to take care of everyone I loved and make sure they are taken care of the right way. I moved to Atlanta within weeks to attend Gupton Jones and the rest is history.
This industry is hard, why do you do your job every day?
Because I make a difference in this world. I work with intense passion and give my full talents and drive to each family I serve. I see it on their faces, I hear it in their voices and I feel it when they embrace me.
What is your favorite part of the job?
My favorite part are the moments when I can take heartache and refocus it towards something positive. For example, a family is riddled with anxiety and fear the first time that they enter their visitation room. In their minds, they are expecting a dimly lit room filled with antique furniture and their loved one without any life in them. What if, instead, the doors opened to reveal a room filled with that person’s joy? A vignette against that wall overflowing with Elvis paraphernalia, and over there, a mannequin showcasing a vintage 50’s style dress, her favorite color can be found everywhere from backdrops to artwork to up lighting. “Love Me Tender” is playing in the background and as they move closer to her, she’s dressed not in her Sunday best, but rather what people were used to seeing – jeans, a sweatshirt and her infamous fire engine red lipstick. Now this… this is mom and she would’ve loved this. Every attention to detail has been made for the family. A framed photo of her family’s business is on display; there are Elvis ornaments to celebrate not only her love of “The King” but also her love of Christmas… this is all done without the family having to haul her personal belongings to the funeral home or any cumbersome work involved. It was something created from someone who truly listened to the family and was able to capture enough of their loved one’s happiness into aesthetics that affect all their senses – taste (red velvet cupcakes to match her fiery personality and red lipstick), sight (all the visuals tastefully on display), sound (uplifting music), touch (holding the Elvis keepsakes in memory of “her”) and smell (Christmas tree air fresheners were placed inconspicuously around the room to fill the air with that crisp tree smell).
How do you balance work and home life, what do you do for self-care?
Self-care is something that I have struggled with throughout my whole career. Life is an ever-changing journey and I am currently refocusing on my physical health at the moment. I am down 32 lbs and counting.
Outside of work what are your hobbies/interests?
General merriment – eating, drinking, dancing or karaoke with good people and an uber driver when the night is over.
Tell us about your family, kids, spouses, pets etc.
My family is not traditional, but then again, whose is anymore? My immediate family consists of my husband, Kyle, my fat little Chihuahua, Vlad, my german shepherd mix, Greta, and exotic “sea creatures” throughout the house. I have so many people that are mutually considered family and it continues to grow. I would trust my life to so many others and for that, I am blessed.
Tell a story about a family you have served, or body prepared that was especially significant to you personally
I remember serving a small family – there was the deceased and his wife. The gentleman worked for Coca-Cola for decades and lived, breathed and of course, drank, Coca-Cola. Everything was personalized in that Bonnie fashion where we focused on his love and passions. I and the staff wore Coca-Cola clothing instead of suits, there was Coca-Cola paraphernalia everywhere that the public was present and at the very end of the service, I passed out cokes and diet cokes so that everyone could toast to this amazing man as I played the original 1971 commercial of “I’d Like to Buy the World a Coke.” The wife was grateful to experience so much love for her husband in an unexpected place, she has since continued to stay in touch with me.
What message would you like to give to the public about our profession?
The public image of a funeral director is terribly misguided. We do not make six figures, I mean, I do drive a Cadillac…hearse that is and then my Nissan home. We are not all the vampiric, pale men in a dusty suit hiding in the shadows – hello, I’m a perky, Asian American female in her mid 30’s. We do not manipulate defenseless widows into overspending for an elaborate service. I listen to what my family’s wants are. After all, they are the ones in charge and I am only here to offer solutions. I don’t care if someone is spending $1,000 or $10,000 – they deserve the same treatment and respect from me and that is what I provide. Funeral directors wear many hats, but I assure you, con artist is not one of them.
If you know of a beautiful funeral director who would fit in this series please send me an email (firstname.lastname@example.org) with who the person is and contact information. This series is planned to run each week in December but I may run another series again in the future.